12 August 2008

NOT THIS TIME

apologies for my absence and any unanswered emails...

it's been the best and worst of weeks since my last post.
finding out that i was pregnant but only to miscarry days later. it's all over again.

and although i said i would open up more and share the real life alongside the creative in this new space...right now i'm struggling to put into words how i feel.

i know that so many people go through this. for us it was the first time we ever got to experience the joy of seeing a positive result on a pregnancy test in the four years we've been trying to start a family. a long journey to that point and a long long way to fall since things went wrong.

it's not that i want to pretend that nothing has happened but for me it's still too soon to write more. but i will. i hope it will help lift the grey clouds hanging outside and indoors.

24 comments:

  1. Oh Kelly....im just gutted for you. So very sorry....thinking of you and C and sending ALL my love. Take good care of yourself and all the time you need....hugs, xo

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  2. I worked out from your last post that you were pregnant. I am so very very sad for you.

    Take your time and know that we are thinking of you.

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  3. Oh kelly, I feel so, so sad for you. Thinking of you. x

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  4. Oh Kelly, I am so sorry for you both, such sad news.
    Take care both of you, sending love and thoughts.

    L x

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  5. oh kelly. i am thinking of you so much. hugs.

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  6. oh kelly, am so sorry to read this, you will be heartbroken, i know. take time to grieve, doesn't matter how early on this happened, a loss is a loss. one thing, is you know now, albeit with some assistance, that your body can get pregnant, and can and will do again. make sure you rest, miscarriages can really take it out of you, look after yourself, x.

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  7. Darling kelly,

    what lovely messages from your blogging friends; it's nice to know you are both receiving love and good wishes from outside your family too. rest, take stock and then go forward, it will happen.

    with love M xx

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  8. sending all that love back at you both. thankyou, and if there's anything i can do
    xx

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  9. Sending my love to you. I am here when you are ready. MANY HUGS xxxx

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  10. hey again. just read your comment on treefall - do you want me to get you some of the blue fabric and post it down? i am going to call in there on my way home from school tomorrow. it wouldn't be any trouble. xx

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  11. dear kelly, I am so sorry for you both. Hang in there and take good care of your self. sending you lots of love x

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  12. Dear kelly, so sorry to hear of the roller-coaster ride, take time to rest (sending warm hugs and wishes your way)!

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  13. So sorry to hear this and thinking of you right now. Be strong and positive, hard I know though and sending warm warm thoughts and wishes to you both. Be comforted by each other BIG HUGS and love. xxx

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  14. sweet girl......
    rest, rest, rest and time will heal - you will then be able to move forward

    sending you both so many gentle hugs and a whole load of healing thoughts

    t x

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  15. Dear Kelly, thank you so much for taking the time to leave me a thoughtful comment, when you're obviously dealing with so much pain yourself. I really feel for you and am thinking of you - sending lots of love, and a hug. Christinex

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  16. a million virtual hugs sent your way, Kelly, I am so sorry for you both :(

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  17. Kelly-

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have had a miscarriage too. My heart hurts for you.

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  18. Anonymous17.8.08

    I do not know you but I am sending my deepest wishes.
    I know what it feels like, I have been there....It does get better and you do find the strength to go again. It finally worked for me after 8 years of Ivf.
    Take care of yourself.

    xx

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  19. Anonymous17.8.08

    I do not know you but I am sending my deepest wishes.
    I know what it feels like, I have been there....It does get better and you do find the strength to go again. It finally worked for me after 8 years of Ivf.
    Take care of yourself.

    xx

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  20. Kelly I am sorry and know how sad you must be feeling, I think 'lucykate crafts' comment said it so well.

    Please look after yourself, and give yourself time - sending you lots of love and hugs

    rx

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  21. Oh!...I know nothing eases the pain but take care of yourselves.
    Jx

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  22. Oh sweet Kelly, I'm so so sorry for you're news.
    There are no words i can say to put thing right for you but only tell you i'm here for you if you need anything.
    You've been so sweet over my loss of my Grandad and i hope i can help give you the same peace.
    Many many big hugs.
    Catherine x

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  23. I can't imagine... I hope you are both doing a bit better. I'm sending you wishes for new hope in the near future.

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