EMPTY BOOTS

afternoons are so dark here now. autumn time-shifts have me turning on the lamps post-lunch and hitting the heating switch. still...it's nice to get cosy.

my mum took e off on an adventure today. just grandma and grand-daughter...the first time they've strayed further than a stroll out in the pram together. it was kind of nice being able to get on with things at home. i washed the windows and had chance to put a bit more heart and soul in to sorting out the house. but it felt a little strange. i missed my girl and it just seemed quiet here.

making a coffee and pulling up a chair to sit and read my 3191Q seemed the height of luxuries. and the new issue really is beautiful. as is the new toast christmas catalogue that dropped on the mat today.

after a couple of hours though i found myself peeking out the window checking for the car more than a few times. and of course when they got home together i was not the favourite...now i know how her daddy feels when she doesn't go to him for a cuddle. grandma's girl.

this morning my cousin had her 4th baby...a boy...at 34 weeks. he is so tiny. she has had a very difficult pregnancy and a very complicated operation to keep them both safe which thankfully they have both come through ok. she has always been a little toughie and i think he must take after his mummy too. my thoughts are filled with them recovering in different wards tonight. i pray they'll be able to be close soon. just a few hours without elsa by my side today and i can hardly begin to imagine how my cousin must be longing to be with her baby.